velleity

there was a time

it always was this song

trace this design

erase it, let this go

the rise and fall

the opened window

we can’t recall

a shape we knew beyond eons long

shedding off my skin just to fight this fight

attempting to roll over just to fake it fake it

fulfilling all my wishes despite this spite

if I bite my tongue i might break it break it

i can’t fucking wait just to shake you out

we course across dreams still awake and quaking

and I see no end to these sainted eyes

still seeing myself and i’m feebly waking

what fades will fade

and this i know

breathe on the glass

a familiar human glow

this self disguise

become chameleon

reveals his hide

all this deception feels beyond eons long

shedding off my skin just to fight this fight

attempting to roll over just to fake it fake it

fulfilling all my wishes despite this spite

if i bite my tongue i might break it break it

i can’t fucking wait just to shake you out

we course across dreams still awake and quaking

and i see no end to these sainted eyes

still seeing myself and i’m feebly waking

ignominy

i relive

every moment, a vigour

tainted

by the taste of completely over

i reflect

shards sown across my floor

this fragrance

caught that scent here before

and i choose to accept this situation

i can breach this precipice in the way, saw me

and i could’ve been beyond your recognition

shed the skin to remedy the tear

i relive

every moment a vigour

tainted

by the taste of completely over

i reflect

shreds sown across my floor

this fragrance

i caught that scent here before

and i choose to accept this situation

i can breach this precipice in the way, saw me

and i could’ve been beyond your recognition

shed the skin to remedy the tear

and you… you…

regret, ignominy

and it will never be

enough to fill me up

you’re done you’ve had enough

you’re washing over me

i reach for anything

you’re tide, i'm drifting out

still got me by the throat

i relive

every moment

tainted

by the taste of completely over

tickbait

clever

aren't you?

slaking slowly

i know

i am not your

tickbait

drinking, sucking

away

you're so clever

aren't you?

who could ever

want you?

i am not your

tickbait

worthless fucking

ingrate

who am i

to punish you, finish you

say you were created this way

who am i

to be the one to

pinch you

tweeze you

what i can to

remove

time to eject

reject

the infected

warm spit

you're so clever

aren't you

slaking slowly

for days

i am not your

tickbait

drinking, sucking

away

you're so clever

aren't you

who could ever

want you

i am not your

tickbait

worthless fucking

ingrate

who am i

to punish you

finish you

say you were created this way

who am i

to be the one to

get you the fuck off of me

I'M

NOT

TICK

BAIT

clever

aren't you

slaking slowly

i know

diluvian

soft, slow

the path, the lasting sun

roots grow

they slake their thirst below

picked, flayed

the arm, the hand, the leg

distaste

the prayer you prayed

enclave

the waters will replace

patience

we lose the things we waste

blot out

the eyes, the nose, the mouth

you know

the flash flood, the passing drought

and so i’ll sink, sink, sink, sink, sink

and we’’ll just sink, sink, sink, sink, sink

and so i’ll sink, sink, sink, sink, sink

and we’ll just sink, sink, sink, sink, sink

perpetuities

Perpetuities

tongue-tasting streams

we perpetuate

mirroring our scenes

as I contemplate

weaving our dreams

that we perpetuate

perpetually seize

there’s no time to waste

i must be dumb

i’m full

circle

third eye

to eye

i’m full

circle

now i know why

i’m full

filled

full

of this would(a)

could(a)

(bull)shit circle

tongue-tasting streams

we perpetuate

mirroring these scenes

as i contemplate

weaving our dreams

that we perpetuate

perpetually seize and

no time to waste

you must be numb

i vacate this void, i peregrinate

i’m full

circle

third eye

to eye

i’m full

circle

and i know why

we're full

filled

full

of a

need

that’s

so

empty

OPHUS LP

manichaeus

we are not told

how low these holes go

these naked bones know

they’ve long bathed in the dirt

so unlike me

stain all the white sheets

gorge on your mercies

i flay myself again

finity

red is what I see

fucking tear away a promise to myself

re-live

bated me — gave a shit

ragged epilogue

started and finished it

ligaments shorn

reused

reworn

we are not told

how low these holes go

these naked bones know

they’ve long bathed in the dirt

so unlike me

stain all the white sheets

gorge on your mercies

i flay myself again

lies

faded porcelain eyes

your vision of sanctity is written

go on without me

tried

land and sea collide

i know it's the only way

and that this won't be the last time

we are not told

how low these holes go

these naked bones know

they’ve long bathed in the dirt

so unlike me

stain all the white sheets

gorge on your mercies

i flay myself again

we are not told

how low these holes go

these naked bones know

they’ve long bathed in the dirt

so unlike me

stain all the white sheets

gorge on your mercies

i flay myself again

porcelain

hollow is long and narrow

within the Void i am not alone

flesh, blood, eyes, hands and marrow

deliver myself; i am trapped no more

on the verge of discontent, consent to kill

admonish-mate the fig and it was ripe with your spit

bathed and broken, assiduously insincere

your means became the end of all that i've ever known

no sharp swords, but you know there’s another side

we are more than just waiting to fucking die

we’re the shield, the blind lead the blind, disease-

spangled heroes, suffocation’s never free

there isn’t a place for me

you threw it away

down falls the failing mercury

this all faded away

no sharp swords, but you know there’s another side

we are more than just waiting to fucking die

we’re the shield, the blind lead the blind, disease-

spangled heroes, suffocation’s never free

bathed and broken, assiduously insincere

your means became the end of all that i've ever known

no sharp swords, but you know there’s another side

we are more than just waiting to fucking die

we’re the shield, the blind lead the blind, disease-

spangled heroes, suffocation’s never free

inside my gut, feel the pus

feel the seed

came from the bottom

then chopped off my feet

i am among them

the sad and the fucked

married to Sodom and pinned to the front

take off your face so I can

take a little time off of your life

step down from grace or i’ll

tear another wing off before flight

bloodstained complexion

i just can’t emote

milk, spit, and honey

pour down my throat

take off your face so i can

take a little time off of your life

step down from grace or i’ll

tear another wing off before flight

idols slipping out of view

i am alone

betrayed by you

don’t believe in this contrast

floodgates of filth opened at last

i am not so feeble but i feel diseased

i can’t feel the void but it’s calling for me

i see through the keyhole and i don’t know what to say

i can’t touch the devil but she’s part of me today

i am not so feeble but i feel diseased

i can’t feel the void but it’s calling for me

i see through the keyhole and i don’t know what to say

i can’t touch the devil but she’s part of me today

i am not so feeble but i feel diseased

i can’t feel the void but it’s calling for me

i see through the keyhole and i don’t know what to say

i can’t touch the devil but she’s part of me today

i am not so feeble but i feel diseased

i can’t feel the void but it’s calling for me

i see through the keyhole and i don’t know what to say

i can’t touch the devil but she’s part of me today

take off your face so i can

take a little time off of your life

step down from grace or i’ll

tear another wing off before flight

take off your face so i can

take a little time off of your life

step down from grace or i’ll

tear another wing off before flight

take off your face so i can

take a little time off of your life

step down from grace or i’ll

tear another wing off before flight

take off your face so i can

take a little time off of your life

step down from grace or i’ll

tear another wing off before flight

i am among them

the sad and the fucked

married to Sodom and pinned to the front

polyvalence

blanching blank in dull faceless pain

the solace of solitude

within me decays

sip you but nothing nothing slakes my thirst

this dry, cracked, clay body

bore me through dirt

i am infinite ambition

i become the void

lord of cavities

vacuous hunger exacting a toll

he blended beneath blankets of snow

this is the instant

attach myself again

above the material

this can be taken away

victor

how’d I do this to myself?

why’d I choose this?

coiled and cast far away

how’d I do this to myself?

why’d I choose this?

coiled and cast away

round and round

temptation to taste this

snake skin thrilling me

endless game resentment

endless game, you’re restless

pathetic pariah putrefying

you are above this

and underneath it

bloodsickened and smitten

fate you cannot leave

how’d I do this to myself?

why’d I choose this?

coiled and cast far away

do it, Adam

plunge the sword into your gut

do it, Adam

I am now your only god

this is the only way

I can’t contain this lust

you are the rock; I am the sea

ouroboros

ouroboros

what goes around comes around

sweat, salt

I could not see it

you couldn’t resist me

sweat, salt

I could not see it

you couldn’t resist me

sweat, salt

I could not see it

you couldn’t resist me

sweat, salt

I could not see it

you couldn’t resist me

do it, Adam

lose yourself inside this rut

do it, Adam

take the knife and make the cut

do it, Adam

plunge the sword inside your gut

do it, dear Adam

I am now your only god

sweat, salt

I could not see it

you couldn’t resist me

sweat, salt

I could not see it

you couldn’t resist me

sweat, salt

I could not see it

you couldn’t resist me

sweat, salt

I could not see it

you couldn’t resist me

choke on your tail

you haven’t won

I am the victor

and you are undone

choke on your tail

you haven’t won

I am the victor

and you are undone

choke, choke, choke

choke on your tail

choke, choke, choke

choke on your tail

choke, choke, choke

choke on your tail

choke, choke, choke

choke on your tail

you know, I see

you are the same as me

man

rise, fain the hide

we couldn’t fade or feign fake lives

eyes sought our paradigm

the cyclic, tyrannical abuse

bite down on the teat

blank, bloodstained, concrete

high tide fucks the weak

those born into bondage

we are complete

blank, bloodstained, concrete

high tide fucks the weak

those born into bondage

look us in our eyes

dried up the sea, sadistically cried

let us get back to you

the cyclic and the dead attract the flies

bite down on the teat

blank, bloodstained, concrete

high tide fucks the weak

those born into bondage

we are complete

blank, bloodstained, concrete

high tide fucks the weak

those born into bondage

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

you’re not awake

false awakening

moments I can't keep

wounds I thought were healed

haunting me in my sleep

still they are so real

angel hold my hand

chill me to the bone

I now understand

what it means to be alone

take these fragments

please throw them all away

they serve no purpose here

we don't need them anyway

I still feel you here

I still feel you here